my deadly wish

I am who I am but can it be true.
That I lost everything, my friends and family just for you!
who am I anymore I can not say.
But do I have to pay the price this way!
Hate me if you will, love me when your home, dont leave me in despare I dont want to be alone.
again.
make me yours, murder me if only in spite.
so I can sleep in your embrace for the rest of the night

The beast that isnt me

I'm  in a dark place but I am not alone, there is something here something I can not see.
I feel a hand and it's forceful it makes me neal to the ground, I try to push away from it and look up to see the face that is causeing me to do something against my will, when I realize its you my demond of the night, my ruthless lover and you have a cold look in your eyes.
When i look down again you have taken the thing for which i fear out and you force it in side my mouth i have no voice I strugle to get you away from me but you push and claw and bit i cant take it i go limp but your not done we me yet and I must suffer your rath.
Even now I dont know why I love you, but when you are through I will love you more my master , my hell riser, my love.